Random

So I'm sitting at my computer straight JAMMIN' to Jesse Boykins III. He is an AMAZING artist that is definitely worth everyone's attention. Take a listen & see for yourself but his music is a breath of fresh air amongst the pollution that we now call 'Mainstream". Anyway, neo soul always puts me in a writing mood & it makes me just want to write a romance novel lol. But I decided right now to use the ambiance to write a poem. My inspiration while writing is "Amourous" which is his current single and a hit record within its own right. I'm going to entitle this "I Wonder"

"I Wonder"

I wonder
I wonder if you even realize
That your smile and your eyes
Are mesmerizing
Every inch of you is tantalizing
My mind starts wandering; Fantasizing
I wonder
Do you enjoy poetry
Does a play on words whip you into a verbal frenzy
I envy
The ones who are able to get close
The ones who can see deep into the windows of your soul
And make a more practical
Synopsis
But from here my only option
Is to stand here and wonder
It's some kind of spell you got me under
That makes me only think of you
Every type of scenario seems to run through
My enthralled mind
I'm wrapped up in the vines
Of your mysterious persona
My body is restricted & unable to walk towards ya
So I'm trapped by my self inflicted interrogation
Hesitation
Engulfs me
I wonder
Where you work?
What's your style?
What you like to do?
With who?
Are you already taken?
Is my attraction blatant?
Would you be interested?
Do you have any kids?
Who are you?
As you pass me by
I wonder...

I need change

Just randomly got in the mood to write so I'm gonna freestyle something quickly. Sometimes writing is just that release you need :)

I need a change
I need to not be stuck
in the same old rutt
Longing to be different
Wanting to separate myself
Needing to do me
You know
Live my life
Not think twice
I need to do what I want
I need to not exist
I need to start living & I need to focus
Focus on the me that I see in the future
So different from me now
Yet still the same
Enhancing my persona & adding longevity to my name
Success is what I claim
Happiness is my aim
Change
Change is what needs to come of me
Looking into myself with discernment & honesty
Getting rid of the flaws that are seeming to harness me
Putting on the achievements that I'm hoping to garnish me
Making me polished
No longer do I wish
I take hold of the change that will overcome my person
The change that won't be able to fit in my purse and
The change that is far more than monetary value
The transformation that will take place so that now you
Can be even further taken aback
Unable to pinpoint the things that I lack
I'm the one who laps you & helps pick up your slack
I'm just that
The epitome of change
I'm the fruition of the dream that plays within my brain
I am a reality
Far from a fallacy
I'm the verisimilitude of all I want to be
I am what I was purposed
Change is me

I'm BAAAAAACK!

Hellooooooo Peeps! It's been ENTIRELY too long but I'm back after a serious hiatus. There isn't too much going on in my life. I'm keeping busy, staying prayerful & you KNOW I had to write a little something lol Anyway... this one speaks for itself :/ It's called: I Used To (The Blame Game)

I used to love the thought of you & me
I used to wish things could go back to how they used to be
I used to want to see your name on my caller ID
I used to think this could possibly be L -O-V-E
But all of the things I used to do
Weren't of any use to you
Even if I brought proof to you
Of all of the things you put me through
You'd still find a way to twist the truth
You'd try to make me feel guilty too
After you pick up, the Blame Game is next
That's after you forgot to respond to my text
After I brought up the topic & you moved on to the next
And you do this so often that I can't even digress
I can't even digest why you can't be direct
I need to analyze where your head is at
What are you thinking & where's your compassion
I know that you recollect exactly what happened
Were you in a clear state of mind when we disagreed
I just need some sort of an explanation please
I just can't understand why you're flipping the script
And I'm trying my hardest not to get a grip
But I can't grasp why you think your point is legit
And I'm unable to fathom why you don't want to solve this
The conflict we have; The minor obstacle we face
Instead you repeatedly try to replace
My evident discomfort with your reverse psychology
Knowing that when I upset you, it bothers me
Making me second guess myself constantly
Using my guilt to turn your flaws into fallacies
Making it appear as if I'm going crazy
But that's what you made me by avoiding the conflict
Your ingrained habits are some things I can't fix
Finetuning your attitude is one thing I won't mess with
And I surely didn't sign up to sharpen your etiquette
So rather than sit here, be angry & have a fit
I decided that I am officially over it
I know that I'm sane
You passing the blame
Is a game that adulthood won't permit me to play
I used to hope that one day you'd say the same
I used to care...
I'm just glad that things change