Jupiter Love

Hey ppl in bloggerland! I haven't written in what seems to be wayyyy too long lol. Anyway I've been doing my same old same yet everything seems to be changing around me... a lot for the worst. As usual, I've had my moments of weakness. Thankfully, those moments don't define me as weak. I'm blessed enough to know that I can push through those things that stand as fixed obstacles in my way. Recently it seems like my dreams & reality aren't coinciding. It's kind of like they're in a bad relationship staying together for the child involved lol. What I mean by that is that they're both still in placed and seemingly going nowhere but they don't seem to be working with eachother. A lot situations surrounding me seem really unhealthy, kind of clouded and REALLY confusing. I'm doing my best to work past them by praying incessantly and trying not to lose faith. Just today, I made a very important decision that I've been praying about since last night. Some may say that's not mulled over enough but God moves expeditiously in a lot of cases. For the first time in the past day I made a decision regarding my current situation that I'm at peace with. I'm really taking a leap of faith with this one but I'm prayerful that it will work out in my best interest. God knows what He's doing and I trust Him. Whatever's supposed to be will be... It's just my job now to do anything that needs to be done in the meantime to the best of my ability and wholeheartedly. This decision is one of the reasons I chose to put this in writing. The whole issue is heavy on my heart and without going into great detail I hope I'm making a point that can speak to someone, somewhere. My point is, although something may seem so perfect to you in the "hunc et nunc" (bka here & now)... God sees far past that. Hardships shouldn't be dwelled upon or dragged out. I'm learning to see the positive outcome of every situation. If you saw everything negative in your live as a negative, how could that area ever contribute to your betterment? I encourage everyone to trust in God in these times. If you don't find yourself trusting in Him, the very LEAST you can do is trust in yourself to do what you can from that point forward to get yourself where you need to go. When the front door is slammed in your face, find a side door, a window, a fire escape, WHATEVER lol. The point is to GET THERE. I know that I'm determined to be somebody doing something that makes me incredibly happy. If I'm not an accurate fit someplace, I'm the perfect puzzle piece at another. I hope that you can draw from my optimism & realize that things are only as bad as you allow them to be. Remember... Genius is perseverance in disguise =)

GreatestLove

So I'm up & I should be writing a bio for my internship buttttt I'm listening to love songs lol. I'm actually jammin to "GreatestLove" by Musiq hence the title of this blog. I really feel like writing something freeform right now but I'll see if anything comes to me.

You make me tingle

Right down from the tip of my nose

To the soles

Of my stilleto ridden feet

Across the arches

I feel weightless

All because love carries me

You've got me on Cloud 9

Even though I feel I can go stories higher

On fire

Blazin'

The flame, the spark

The one I feel in my heart

Is truthfully burning for you

I don't know how you do it

How you make me feel this way

How you keep me clinging on

How you have me always wanting to

Sing, hear, hum the same love songs

You got me stuck on every part of you

My hearts growing stronger

But me being lovesick

Has me weak at my knees

All at the thought of you

I'm excited by all that we could be

Longing to see

You

&& me

Us as one, possibly

Baby steps

Love's like learning to walk all over again

Holding on to feel safe

Scared to let go

But with you that's changing

I'm taking my first steps

Trusting your hands

Walking with you

Fingers laced

No need to chase it

Love

It's here for you

Like I'm hoping you're here for me

I'm hoping this is meant for us

That the butterflies in my stomach aren't falsely fluttering

That the tingle running through me

Has everything to do with you && me

I get it every time I hear a love song