Summer's over :'(

Heyyyyyyyy Bloggers!! Well summer is coming to a close and that made me remember a poem I wrote about a year and a half ago. It's called "Dear Summer" which is a play off of Jay Z's song but I took it in a sort of different direction. It's more connected to a romantic approach that i hope you'll all be able to enjoy and connect with. Read on... live... prosper =)

"Dear Summer"

Dear Summer,
I thought that you'd miss me...
I never knew Autumn would creep up so quickly
&&just take you away
Yeah I know you'll be back
But it just ain't gonna be quick enough for me
It kills me that i can't reach out &&touch what I see
Right in front of my eyes
As the days go by
I miss you more&&more each day
It's only day 3
Already i'm crazy
&&I can't figure out what it is about you that made me
A straight up fein
For your warm cool breeze
You're like a breath of fresh air so it's hard to believe
That Autumn could try &&just take your position
The sunshine &&bright colors are not what I'm missin'
So Summer,
If you can hear me, I need you to listen
I don't know why you're all of a sudden so special
Now you're leaving so suddenly &&my heart won't let you
Ecsape any fragment of my brain
Autumn's alright... but I don't really like change
Winter's cold shoulder causes all types of pain
&&Spring is so far that my tears turn to rain
Just at the thought of how much I'll miss you
It's confirming the fact that how I feel is official
Summer... I miss your heat
I miss the sand beneath my feet
Taking long strolls on the beach
Wouldn't be the same with anyone else
If you didn't know how I already felt
I need you to digest all that I say
None other is like you &&every day
There are constant thoughts of you in my mind
I miss you Summer
&&it's crazy how much
I wanna be with you but I have to trust
That the seasons will pass and I'll soon be seeing you
And your feelings for me hopefully will still be in you
Maybe next summer will be better than ever
But that's only if we get to spend it together <3

At it again

So I'm leaving for SC tomorrow and I should be packing right now. However, I decided to waste some more time and post a poem lol. I don't know how many of you have been in the situation where a dude just drove you over the edge. And they say WE have drama? With some guys, there always seems to be an issue. Get it together homie lol. Anyway, this poem is one that I wrote in a situation where there was a lot of confusion. As usual, the only way I knew to truly deal was to pray and use the venue that God gave me to express myself, which is writing. Thus, this poem was born =) I call this one "Half Crazy" (Ode to the GREAT Music Soulchild) Enjoy.

So you're going half crazy?
That's... interesting
Is she better than me?
What's the dispute?
What's the deliberation
Regarding the situation?
I just don't understand
You're going half crazy?
Well so am I
I can hardly put my full trust in a guy
Then I give some to you
&&this is what you do
One... two strikes
Although the feeling seems right
It's so, so wrong
&&now I'm repeatedly singing the song
I probably should but can't leave you alone
You're half crazy?
Well I'm damn near insane
I curse the headache and damn the pain
I just cant\'t deal
&&though the feelings seem real
I don't know what to do
Confused. Hoodwinked. Bamboozled
That's how I'm feeling
Your kiss seems like the only medication
But longing for your touch is a dangerous side effect
That affects my mind, body and heart
Why didn't you start
By telling me you'd potentially drive me half crazy
That you were half crazy
That your love for her may never leave
Put me under the asylum
Solitary confinement may be best
Lock up my arms in a straight jacket
So I get tired of being held
Learning to live without you
What should I do?
Because half crazy seem to suit me well
I don't want to dwell on the issue
But this plus me missing you
Has me playing both sides
I'm on the fence
I'm on the defense
Scared of being hurt
Insane
Deranged
Delirious
Confused
Perplexed
All of the above
Half crazy over you.

Question

I have a question.
Are you looking for love?
Do you see it in me?
Am I everything that you thought I'd be?
You don't know?
Oh, you don't know YET?
Are you looking to see just how far you might get?
Is that the motive behind you getting to know me?
Why am I so skeptical?
Why shouldn't I be?
Don't you know that the opposite sex is prone to hurt me?
How'd I get so guarded?
You ever been brokenhearted?
Are you still confused as to how this whole thing got started?
You see something in me?
Did you get past my face?
Oh, so you think I'm smart?
Did you take that from our conversation?
Did I even say anything witty?
Or is that just your way to get me?
Is that a tactic to get it?
Now you don't know what 'it' is?
When is the last time you've done this?
Do I have any more questions?
I guess I had a few.

Love Junkie <3

Hey people. So I had a hard time actually FINDING my own blog to write on it again lol. Hopefully i won't forget this crucial information anymore and I'll be able to write more frequently. I came on here tonight because I've been contemplating a lot today and I wanted to write some spoken word. But Now that I'm here I would really like to share this poem that i wrote recently. It's called "Love Junkie" and without anything further... here it is:

So I'm back at it
Just like a crack addict
Love is my drug
&&I can't get enough
Straight overdosing on you
Thoughts fill my mind
I'm on a bad trip
This hallucinogen
Is like a sin; Again,
I'm fallen
Slumped over myself
In a daze
High off of your love
No detox will help
This euphoria's addictive
&&my heart... I can't trick it
No placeBEAU can take its place
I'm eternally intoxicated
Obliterated
By your love
It's a gateway drug
Opening up my body to more &&more usage
All the while; love grows
Everybody nose
I'm a junkie
Craving every ounce&&kilo
Like an infiltrated needle
You reach the core of me
Running through my blood
Feeding my mind
Pumping through my heart
Rushing to my lips
When the high is gone I'm in withdrawal
Crawled in a ball
Unable to function
All other thoughts are eradicated
I'm solely concentrated
On when I can get my next hit
You're my supplier
&&I'm in dire
Need of your love
No need to lace it
Grown, made, packaged... perfectly
Far more than a dime bag
Is what I need to get my fix
But you never run out
Love is always available
&&I'll always take it
I'm addicted
Don't want to fix it
No Rehab.
No Therapy.
No Kicking the Habit.
I'm a fein... for... you <3