Helloooooooooo peeps! So it's clearly been a while since I've ventured on this site and I've been being pushed to write but never felt so compelled until tonight. Today was a day of many emotions which have drawn me to call on God for several things. I just feel like as of today I was pulled in so many directions which was draining in one way but a great blessing in another because I was able to fall into a spiritual place and really start to question my personal relationship with God. But before I divulge into that topic, I should update you on my favorite subject... ME! lol
So not too long after my last post, March 17 2010... I cut off all of my hair. I had been going natural for a while and on that day I finally got fed up with worrying what everyone thought. It was a very powerful day for me because I did something major... for ME. I wasn't worried about what people would say, I didn't ask anyone's permission (but God's). I just did it for me. So on that day at around 11 at night I went into the bathroom with some scissors and my ipod, looked in the mirror, prayed, turned on some Gospel music and cut away 22 years of everyone else's expectations of me. In the end, I was so relieved and proud that I did it and that there was no turning back. I had absolutely no regrets and thank God that I was and am able to take myself as I am without worrying about what society calls me to be. Now, I'm 9 months natural and going on 5 months since I did the Big Chop and my natural hair journey has been fantastic.
As for what went on with me today, I just feel a lot of confusion but my prayer for the moment is one of revelation. I want and need God to tell me where I need to be and I feel Him doing it subtlely but I'm in need of a clear sign so that I can move forward. I hope that anyone else seeking the same thing might be helped and I pray that they can stay strong in the Lord, knowing that the answer will come at His pace and nobody else's.
Oh yeah... the new love of my life is MAKEUP. I've done a few jobs but hope to make it a LUCRATIVE hobby lol... anybody in need of an MUA for ANYTHING, check out my port at www.modelmayhem.com/leyjaemua
HOLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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"In the end, I was so relieved and proud that I did it and that there was no turning back. I had absolutely no regrets and thank God that I was and am able to take myself as I am without worrying about what society calls me to be."
ReplyDeleteYou go girl. I'm glad this is where your mind is. About time you're on my blog reel. ^_^ Welcome back
I'm glad you did the natural cut for you and thought about you and God. When it's all said and done, no one else's opinion matters.
ReplyDeleteAs far as the message from God, it may not come clear or the message may not be visible, but it's there. In all due time, you will know what path to go when the decision needs to be made.