It Kills Me...

Hey People!!! It's been entirely toooooo long! It's my first post of the new year so I'm hoping that as the year progresses, so does this blog and so does my writing. My growth as a person is tremendously important and alongside that, I'm hoping that God strengthens all of the positive relationships that are present in my life. I've been in a bit of a funk but I've been getting past it. Anywho, I recently just listened in on 3 really great albums! Melanie Fiona, Chrisette Michelle and Rihanna have been in heavy ro and all three have been contributing to the emotions I've been feeling recently. I feel sort of jumbled, contorted and down right confused with a lot of situations I have to deal with but of course... my faith in God has been the support I need. Of course, I feel the need to write so I'm gonna go ahead and let whatever comes to me transfer from my fingertips to your screen =)

Say It.

I just need you to say what you mean.

My inability to read minds

Has me clinging to every word that leaves your lips

Squinting to see what might be left between the lines

Looking for anything

A clue.

Some hint.

I need an inkling of emotion

A snippet of some feelings

I want some truth to how you're feeling

Wholeheartedly just let me know

And I know.

I hold back.

Clam up.

Introverted... that's me

But every fiber of my body

Is pushing through

I'm trying to get to you

Leaving vacancy

Where honesty

Used to hide

I'm giving you me

Piece by piece

Unveiling all that my heart allows

and some...

I'm trusting you with me

So where's the reciprocity?

The ambiguity

It kills me...

I don't wanna play a guessing game

No doubts in my mind

Just the communication I want

The clarity I deserve

The love that I need

Allow me to see

Where we could go

How strong we can grow

We'll never know

Unless we take a chance

So hold my hand

Look in my eyes

I promise to follow suit

I'll give my all to get me & you